The Fray

This is the lyrics to a song I heard that reflected whats been going on in my life. So Whenever it says a "She's on my mind" change it for "He's on my mind". And yes we have come to the point of the blog where I am inundated by self- pity and depression (as if I have not shown this side to my friends) but the greater public should be aware of this fact too. Be happy at least I am not overdosing on Tori Amos and Damien Rice right now (because I admit that if I did so it would mean I'd drown myself and my sarrows in a river of highly caloric chocolate ice- cream or Black Rasberry with chocolate ice cream, and since I plan on losing some more weight so I leave a pretty corpse at some point in the future I can't.) I can say that not the whole song applays to my situation but the parts I identify with are the ones in italic. I know I know, this is what happens when you like assholes. I need an emergency session with A.A. *Sighs* Oh, well.

Over my Head (Cable Car)

I never knew, I never knew
that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a queue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing
more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears

Everyone knows
I'm in Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Let's rearrangeI wish you were
a stranger I could disengage
Say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between

Everyone knows
I'm in Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows
I'm in Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound we lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves

Everyone knows
I'm in Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows
I'm in Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Post by a Relapsed A.A. member that will be undergoing treatment and counceling free of charge from the A.A. "Over coming lovelife neurosis one at a time." - A.A. motto.

Fiki

Doing a Materials and Testing activity with my classmates about Esperanto (a different language from God knows where) I came across a website call The Alternative Dictionary. Here I discovered all the dirty words in Esperanto. You all know me, so as you well can imagine fiki is Esperanto for the most important word in my vocabulary, which of course is fuck. This dictionary has the dirty words to a lot of languages. I see my mission this summer to learn all the translations of the word fuck. And yes I know that it is very Samantha of me and am having an extremely proud moment. Hey, at least I will be trying to learn new languages.
(Oh, and Stella before I forget I know you sometimes curse in Japanese so I want to make you aware that Prof. Billy Woodall is fluent in Japanese. So even if you take class with him and would like to curse, I would suggest not to. You can dedicate the summer to inventing curse barkings though or even mooing.)
I feel that in the true nature of learning I will compose a sentence in Esperanto:
Vi volupta kreteno merdo patrinfikulo putinfilaco.
Oh I had some news which I will probably email you boobies or tell you when I see you because I don't feel safe saying it online. The next post will be probably be self explanatory. But yes it has to do with my non- existent lovelife and why it will remain so.
Have fun trying to find out what I said. LOL.
Here is the website link http://www.notam02.no/~hcholm/altlang/